Dissociative Identity Disorder Video: Hospitalization

Hi Holly,
If the video is an true indication of how you're feeling and coping now, it's good to see you're feeling more steady.
Take care,
CG

"But some of it has to do with stereotypical attitudes about inpatient psychiatric interventions."
That's a very good point, Holly. It's interesting that even though WE know how important and healthy hospitalization can be to us, we still harbor those same attitudes ourselves.
My last hospitalization probably saved my life. But even so, I waited at least a week longer than I should have, until I could no longer function at any level before I'd consider it. (I didn't have a DID diagnosis at the time, so was hospitalized then for severe PTSD symptoms.)
Interestingly enough, during that last hospitalization I ended up leaving as well. I don't remember it but people on the ward said I looked pretty upset and stormed off... I found myself a few miles away, basically in the middle of nowhere totally lost and had to have the police help me get back. THAT's embarrassing, let me tell you. I'd sure like to know WHY some parts would resist getting help... doesn't make much sense to me.
And hey... I'm glad you're doing better, keep it up =)

I think it also depends on past experiences. I've had overwhelming bad experiences in psychiatric wards, so am resistant to going.

Often when people have mental health issues they end up feeling stripped of their confidence to take charge and act with purpose during moments of clarity. And I think In some ways the mental health system promotes and perpetuates this. So it's not surprising that for many of us self admissions are viewed as failures to cope, rather than constructive strategies to give ourselves a leg up when we need it. I think this has a lot to do with the old medical model Dr 's and hospitals are still following

I hear all the things you mention in your video. Great video! I am sorry you felt like you had to sneak out of the hospital. For parts of you, I am sure the decision was not at all reckless. I hope you feel better now.

Holly,
This is a very brave video and I wish you well.
Its important for folks who are MP or identifying with dx of DID to realize when they need help outside of their own group efforts ,or when some folks in group are having a hard time. There may be times of the year one person has a more difficult time then another or(alter). It is also importent to enlist help from those within ones own System/Family or Group for support, to those folks,as well, to keep a group up and running functioning and communicating well.
I encourage folks to stay in Therapy steadily during the good high functioning times, as a backup added support. Its important to always remember a basic , we in Groups at time forget, we are with a group, always the WE not ME
If one should fall on hard times it does not always mean danger and disaster, but when communication goes way down between each other..it can be very helpful to have a Therapist on hand that knows all group members strengths and weaknesses, and concerns too . Somebody, of a support , all in the group can feel comfortable to speak too, before it all gets too confusing, more of a preventative effort, is the best.
I am sorry some in your group felt it a failure to be 'in patient', if only to talk,hang around get evaluated, its highly unlikely and rare that anyone is kept very long these days( even if exhibiting a psychosis state,even if feeling unsafe, rare to be actually "held" in patient.if they have a ongoing Therapist they are seeing. More common to be sent for follow up daily till things diffuse If that helps others to know..maybe they will go to "talk" if need be.
I hope you and yours, continue to take care of each other and recieve help when it is offered during this time. Peace Blessings to you
Maria and Mosaics