Recovery from PTSD and Resilience
I sit in my home by myself because my family left. I don’t blame them. They just couldn’t take it anymore. What they couldn’t take was me and my posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I have come to refer to it as “the PTSD me,” because it often feels there’s two completely different people within me.
The real me is a very flawed person. I’ve made a lot of mistakes in life. But I have always had a good heart, a kind heart that would never want to hurt anyone or anything purposefully. I have other good qualities, but I’d say the good heart is chief among them.
PTSD Symptoms Out Of Control and Mental Health Recovery
However, PTSD me is a raging individual who is constantly ready to fight at a moment’s notice. I’ve screamed at total strangers because I felt like they were a threat to me. I made a poor lady nearly drop a gallon of milk at the grocery store because she surprised me from behind, which caused me to jump as though someone had zapped me with a taser. This was quite embarrassing. This is why I don’t usually go to the grocery store.
And then there's my family, my poor family. I’ve a wife and four grown kids. My wife has been a loyal and true friend to me. She’s gone through it all with me, the substance abuse, the legal problems, lost sleep, rages and depression. For her to say she can’t take it anymore is a pretty big deal.
PTSD me has become too dangerous and toxic to be around. And I understand it, I really do. But it still hurts when your whole family bails on you, even if it is the best thing for everyone.
Mental Health Recovery Doesn't Mean "All Better"
Out of control symptoms and the trouble they can bring may sound like the opposite of recovery. When one thinks of recovery, we usually think “all better.” But mental health recovery isn’t like that. Most of the time, those with mental illness will never be “all better.”
Mental health recovery is a process whereby the mentally ill person strives to not allow their symptoms to control them. Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA), a government agency specializing in mental health recovery says:
The process of recovery is highly personal and occurs via many pathways. It may include clinical treatment, medications, faith-based approaches, peer support, family support, self-care, and other approaches . . . Recovery is characterized by continual growth and improvement in one’s health and wellness that may involve setbacks. Because setbacks are a natural part of life, resilience becomes a key component of recovery.
Resilience a Key Factor in PTSD and Mental Illness Recovery
Resilience refers to an individual’s ability to cope with adversity and adapt to challenges or change . . . optimism and the ability to remain hopeful are essential to resilience and the process of recovery.
You see, even though my symptoms are out of control and I’m experiencing hardship as a result, I am still in PTSD recovery. Why? Because through the years I’ve learned to be resilient. That’s why in the midst of my challenges, I made it to my doctor appointment. I worked with her on a new medication regimen we hope will help me. I also practiced assertiveness instead of aggressiveness, and it actually worked.
The point here is that your recovery doesn’t have to be completely derailed because you’re out of control in some ways and you fell back into old behaviors and attitudes.
We must cultivate resilience in our mental health recovery, so when the hardships come as they always do, we aren't “knocked off our horse.” And if we do get knocked off, we will continue to get back in the saddle because we are resilient.
Ehrmantrout, M. (2014, November 12). Recovery from PTSD and Resilience, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2024, February 21 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/recoveringfrommentalillness/2014/11/mental-health-recovery-requires-resilience
Author: Mike Ehrmantrout
A few days ago I liked this page and shared this article because I thought being resilant is a good thing. I wanted to share with others and come back and look at the article however this article then started a comment that I don't understand from reading the article how someone would think that. This person said the article was basicaly antiphycharity stuff and an agenda to enfluence people negatively and further comments went on to reference Hitler. I am at a commplete loss as to why this article provoked such a response. The comments have since been deleted and I was blocked. I see nothing inappropriate in this post or wrong I found it iformative and helpful concerning mine and other exsperiences. What am I missing?
I found the article very encouraging even though the individual seemingly had lost everything. He still knew that his heart was a good one. The people who turned on you must have had some weird reasons but I don't know what they could be. Of course I don't understand when some fundamentalist Christians or conservative Republicans say some of the hurtful things they say.
I'm glad to have finally found articles that make sense to me. I am also glad I didn't see the ignorant posts that we negative, (that's where my challenges lay,I don't do abusive or bullying or people making fun of something we can't help.) Bad suit has already happened to us. Please be respectful! We have earned it by experience.
I am diagnosed borderline personality disorder, major depression anxiety problems, phobias inc agoraphobia using the phone etching. Been told to "get over it" plenty, PTSD came up and will be getting intensive therapy for bpd and the trauma. Things finally make sense! I am shit scared of everything, my fone ringing will make me jump. Been hard to get this far, 10+ years but things have improved espesh the mental health support. Need to connect with people who have similar experiences. Right now nightmares and fibromyalgia are making my life hell and my family have deserted me besides my sis who doesn't get it but tries at least. It's so isolating I've been ashamed my whole adult life. I too have a good heart bt if am triggered I am someone else. I rage. I am violent. Irrational. N I CANT HELP IT. It's lost me friends along the way.
Bless to all suffering this bs. Men have it worse as they r sposed to be "strong" bt being strong is getting help I believe. Thankyou for article.
This might help a little. You might be able to meet some folks over there that suffer the same disorders as you. Good Luck! http://www.healthyplace.com/personality-disorders/