Schizoaffective Disorder Makes it Hard to Clean My Home

Thank you for sharing. I love hearing about your journey and how you cope with everything. I have similar fears when it comes to cleaning. The noise of the Vacuum really bothers me. I don't know why it scares me so much but it is hard to make myself clean because of the sound. I like being able to hear everything and the sound of the vacuum makes it so I can't hear the sounds around me that give me comfort. I don't like not being able to hear if a door opens or if the floor squeaks. I really appreciate your posts. It helps me realize I am not alone in my fears. Thank you for inspiring me.

I rarely clean and when I do, it takes at least 3 hrs to clean my efficiency. Dirty dishes, dirty clothes all over the floor. Filthy bedding. I'm fortunate not to have roaches or bedbugs, because it looks like I should. It's like a huge effort just to get up and get started. But it's so disheartening to look at day in and day out. I'm bipolar 1. I take Klonopin for anxiety and I need it a lot in big part because of the cleaning. My self care just evaporated one day. One day I was showering at least every other day, and now it's up to 7 days. I've always been scrupulous about washing my face but now the lack of showering is causing me not to bother washing my face. I try hard to keep up with the teeth. I'll wear the same clothes for 4 days at a time. I've been having lots of intrusive thoughts that make me so miserable. I've finally decided to get therapy. I'm holding decades of guilt that is interfering with my whole day, every day. Pop up thoughts that I'm bad, have been so rotten in my life.
Well, i enjoyed your article, it helped me. Thank you for listening.

Hi Elizabeth
I have schizoaffective no-polar type.
I can relate to everything you and Deana wrote. Some of the stuff that has helped me are DBT/CBT skills over many many years. Flylady.net for inspiration and affirmations. I can't keep up with her cleaning plan but I can do some of the stuff she suggests. Decluttering is a big issue for me. She has a simple method of using a timer (15 or 2min) to do tasks. Pacing is important for me because of several medical issues. So this helps me. Not everyday but it helps. She's got such a good message. I have a motto for myself Having a clean house is not a moral issue! I am not a bad person! I don't have people over either. Not just because of the state of my house but because of safety issues. Right now I have to consider having help come in because my HB(hubby) can't keep up with all the care I need and take care of the house. I am terrified! But it needs serious consideration. As far as noise, I get what your saying Deana. I use ear plugs my daughter uses noise cancelling ear phones. I can do this because I have dogs that bark at everything! Lol Can you consider a alarm system?
I want to thank you both for sharing. I'm going to be 65 soon. I've had over 40yrs of therapy and psycho education classes. See if your community mental health agency offers anything like this. The classes helped me more than anything.
God bless you both!
Catherine

You are not lazy. I have many of the same difficulties showering and drying my hair. I also struggle with cleaning my apartment. I thought I was lazy but I am not because I obsess on how I can do these things and stay safe. I want to thank you for sharing your experiences. You give me hope because you do write this column and by reading your experiences I have hope. Thank you.

My house is filthy and I have no motivation whatsoever. Even though I know that the house being dirty makes my depression and anxiety worse, I still can't deal with it.

I’m really going through it too. I was never a good cleaner, but now it’s just non-existent. I hate that my husband has to do everything but my avolition is so severe that I can’t do anything at all. And my personal grooming is out the window. I used to be meticulous when it comes to my appearance. Now I’m lucky if I change my clothes in the week. Schizoaffective disorder has stolen my life.

I have Schizoaffective disorder as well. I have no motivation to clean my house and it is awful and nasty. I don't feel so alone after reading this article. Sometimes I can barely cope with basic life skills. Other times I do ok. I wish you all the best as you navigate these choppy waters that are mental illness.

I clean based on my energy levels for the day and I literally will break down every cleaning task to a ridiculous small steps. For example for doing the dishes in the dishwasher 1. Scrub dishes 2. Put scrubbed dishes in dishwasher (if you don't think you can do enough dishes to fully load the dishwasher just do as many as you can) 3. Add water to dishwasher (I only have a tabletop dishwasher and thus must add water before running it if I can't finish adding water get as much water in there as I can) 4. Add dishwasher detergent 5. Start dishwasher and switch sign from dirty dishes to not dirty dishes (these have to happen together, this is the only step that must be completed in one go) 6. Unload dishwasher 7. Bring dishes from other parts of the house to the sink. This means I have a running to do list showing how far along I got in the process that me and my significant other (SO) both have access to.

To All,
Sorry you are having such difficulties with keeping your home to the standard you would like. In my experience, coping with a severe and often debilitating illness is a day to day struggle. It is hard to plan ahead. The focus often has to be on keeping yourself safe that day and dealing with what ever your senses are going to throw up.
This can be exhausting.
I am considering creating a service for people who have a diagnosis of Schizophrenia or Schizoaffective Disorder ( possibly other mental health conditions). This would be a free service, paid for by obtaining funding from funding bodies e g. comic relief perhaps.
There would be help with gardening but you would be in charge, deciding what changes you may want in your home and garden. Staff would regularly clean homes, and do laundry. There would be support in learning how to keep house and how to fix small things around the house. For those who feel there is anything they want to learn.
I worked as a mental health advocate for many years and visited many young people who had been diagnosed with illnesses such as schizophrenia and Schizoaffective Disorder. Where they were alone and had no one to help them with day to day tasks. They told me they had not been able to make their home into a place for themselves, that reflected their character and their interests.
Whenever I enquired to see if there was a home cleaning service for people with mental ill health, run by Services/NHS. I was told no, almost laughed at.
This greatly surprised me as I am sure if a person was at home with a heart complaint, and was in the same predicament that they would receive a cleaner?
Things may have changes since then.
Could you do me the courtesy of replying to me, whether a free cleaning service home and garden, while you may need, would be of use to you?
Any kindly worded disagreements or other ideas are welcome.
Are there any other things that come to mind that your illness makes difficult, that could improve your quality of life? That is not already covered by your CMHT..... if you have one.
Please can you ask other people that you know that have schizophrenia or Schizoaffective Disorder to also read this and to send me their feedback.
This idea is in the early stages. I need to see what everyone thinks before I take it any further.
I live in the Bolton area. But will be grateful of your ideas and feedback from anywhere in the country.

Hey there,
I have schizoaffective disorder as well and I can't clean anything. I grew up cleaning my whole house and cooking because my parents don't cook or clean and God do I wish I could just be a kid again. I haven't cleaned in months. Luckily my housemate cleans she has minor ocd, I think.