How to Walk Away From Verbal Abuse

March 10, 2011 Kellie Jo Holly

Walking away from verbal abuse temporarily helps ease the trauma of the abuse. Unfortunately, the abuser doesn't like it when you do not stand there and listen to the abusive rant, so walking away can seem like the absolutely worst option at the time of attack, yet walking away from verbal abuse is probably the best option, every time.

Before You Walk Away from Verbal Abuse, Prepare Yourself

Prerequisite to this experiment:

Make an extra house and car key. Always have them in your pocket or in a hidden space where you can subtly grab them. (As a commenter pointed out, you may not want to wear them around your neck as the chain could be used against you.)

Keep your purse by the door that is closest to where you park your car. If you do not have a car, place your purse by the door that most quickly gets you into view of your neighbors so you can walk to someone's house. If you don't have a car or neighbors, then keep your cell phone on you at all times and either "walk away" by going outside or by going into a room with a working window and locking the door. (Don't go to the bathroom or garage or any room that has usable weapons or multiple hard surfaces. Right now, the attack is verbal, but it could escalate to physical violence and you don't want to make hurting you easy for your abuser.)

Have your notebook in the place you plan to escape to. If you're going to a friend's, store it there. If you're going to your car, keep it hidden there. If you're escaping to your bedroom, ...

NOTE: You know your abuser. If you fear physical attack by trying the following tips, then you are in a very serious position. Carefully consider your own safety action plan. The Army has a good one; find a modified version of their safety plan at Verbal Abuse Journals.

The key to remembering to leave the fighting arena is pre-planning. You can somewhat figure out when an attack is going to occur if you read the signs in your abuser's behavior. Being able to do that will take a bit of observation, willing detachment, and note-taking.

Now It's Time to Walk Away from Verbal Abuse

1. Observe Your Body's Warning Signs

Pay attention to your body's anxiety signals as a forewarning. When you feel your heart beating and you're trying to pretend like everything is normal, that is your first sign that an attack is imminent. Make a mental note of the time, and remind yourself to look at the time again when your abuser begins the abuse session. (Make sure you write how long it took from "symptoms felt to abuse" in your notebook later.) Ultimately, the goal is to find something else to do in a different location when the symptoms begin, but you'll want to prove to yourself that you can predict the violence because you've probably been told that you can't trust yourself.

When your abuser begins the attack, what is their facial expression? What are they doing with their hands? Do they call to you to go to them, come to you, or just start making a fuss to which you respond in hopes of calming before it gets too bad? Write down as much information as you can about his behaviors and expressions. When you've seen enough, it is time to walk away.

You can simply walk away without saying anything, or you can state one of your boundaries that the abuser has busted through. Say it once, calmly, then begin initiating your escape plan.

Notice that no where in the observation portion do you listen to the nonsense.

2. Willing Detachment

At this point you may be calm or you may be crying. You may be feeling all sorts of things because even though you "weren't listening" you did hear. (How can we not?) Now is not the time to feel these emotions. You can feel them in a few minutes when you're at a safer place.

Note: If your escape place is your bedroom (with a working window and a lockable door), have an mp3 player or something in there to help you refocus from the abuser who may stand outside your door to continue his rant.

3. Note-Taking

When you are in your safe place, pull out your notebook and start writing down the facts. Recalling the facts will help you to further detach. Although writing them down may not make you feel better immediately, after doing it you will likely feel differently about what was said to you and how he acted. Over time, you will see that the "spontaneous" attacks seem more like "controlled terrorism" in which your abuser picks the time and place. What the abuser does is no accident, what s/he says is predictable, and the accusations s/he lays on you are nonsense.

When I was married, I was naively in denial that my husband would physically attack me (again). I would pull out my notebook and start writing in it during an attack in front of him. I don't recommend doing that. Your notebook should be sacred and private. If you've never hidden anything before, now is the time to get creative.

Your notebook serves two empowering purposes. One, it helps you to detach from the pain of a verbal assault soon after experiencing it. Two, it provides you a record of "what happened" no matter how long it is between attacks. There is a tendency to "think we're crazy" and deny to ourselves the hurtful instances we've experienced with our abusers. Your notebook will not allow you to fall prey to your own mind.

APA Reference
Jo, K. (2011, March 10). How to Walk Away From Verbal Abuse, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2024, May 29 from

Author: Kellie Jo Holly

James E. Nelson
April, 15 2012 at 8:18 am

I had been married for 30 years. The best thing I ever did (after she told me to pack my trash and get out) was to leave. The effects of a verbally abusive wife for so many years has taken it's toll on me. If your partner is verbally abusive - get out; you simply cannot change them.

June, 29 2012 at 2:54 pm

I'm trying to walk away from mine, but it is hard. I have eubpd,ptsd and children in care.
The problem ive got is my abuser is only abusive when I disagree with him or have an opinion. Also he has filed divorce on grounds of my unreasonable behaviour where I have tried to only defend myself from his physical violence. When he gets physically violent, he then turns to alcohol, takes an overdose and puts himself in hospital.
He has used my mental health against me in his divorce,he says 'divorcing me is the only way he will get his children back' but cps have told me they wont return them to him.
I've tried the police but im stuck because they think im manipulating the attack because of my mental health. He also ropes in my 17yr old son,he has brainwashed him into believing this is my fault. Since the children went into care this has got worse,I find myself verbally abused,emotionally blackmailed over the children,my opinion belittled and totally ignored when I stand up to him.
He then resorts to going out of his way, buying me things and being caring one day to make me believe he loves me, then acting as if he hates me the next. He told me of yesterday just for telling him I wanted to change my doctor.He takes no interest in what I am doing to get well, mocks me for using the skills I was taught in dbt and says 'he doesn't care' one minute, then tells me 'he loves me the next.
I'm told 'my son hates me' and called a 'sefish bitch' when my opinion on the children differs to his. I'm going through with my divorce, as I believe I have a better chance of getting well and even if I don't get my youngest back, at least I can try for my older children.
I am scared,I feel nobody believes me and I'm worried that when I leave he will get the children. CPS can't see this because he is different around them and in contact with the children,hes passed his parenting assesment through being decieving.I know when they come home, they will get hurt as one of them has in the past.However they are desperate to come home,and because of this the son that got hurt is scared to speak up and seems to be making excuses for his dads behaviour.I feel victimized, not just by my husband but by the local authorities who do not believe me because of my mental health.
If anyone has been here before,I'd welcome some advice.

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

May, 28 2018 at 11:41 am

So he "ONLY" turns into a a**hole when you have a opinion! We all have opinions all the time, like what to eat, wear, read, ect.
It's no use to go over all the points you made as they will be endless. He's a abusive man who has to have someone to abuse or he would go insane in the empty room. You already know this though, but you're making excuses for him.
"Get Out"! So what about all the excuses for why you can't leave it's bull. Those things will always be there, accept it and get out!
Who cares what your kids think? Their kids! By staying YOUR teaching them it's okay to treat you this way. I could go on and on but that would take up too much of my life.

December, 16 2012 at 2:27 am

i have been divorced and had to leave my ex husband because i cheated on him, but my 3 grown up children are with him and do not want to know me only if i go back to my ex husband, i been three times but everytime he takes me to bank and take all my money out so i wont go again, now this is the third time i walked away and to be with the person i love and he looks after me respects me, but ex emails me and says come back im thinkung of going back my heart says no then when i think of my grown up kids its says yes go. im scared do not know what to do he said if i do not come back he will get someone else in then the doors are sut on me what should i do help me please im stuck in between decision making now.

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Kellie Holly
December, 16 2012 at 7:47 am

Ayesha, you could be talking about financial abuse, but since you allow him to take your money out of guilt and as a safe-guard to keep you from leaving, I am not sure it is abusive. You said you love someone else but your grown children won't talk to you unless you're with your ex (I presume your ex is their father). That is their way of trying to control the situation, to keep their mom and dad together. All kids do it or want it on some level, no matter what their age. This in itself is not abuse.
To me, it sounds like you want both men in your life - to have your cake and eat it too. You cheated on your ex for a reason. You say good things about the other man, but nothing good about your ex. I think, and this is only my opinion, that it would be best to let the door to your ex close. If you don't, not only will your ex close the door but your new man could too. No one can put up with their lover going back and forth forever - at some point, the pain you cause him will become greater than the love he feels for you.
If there is abuse involved in either relationship, then leave that one. Otherwise, your decision is yours alone and even if someone told you what to do you could not do it until you make up your OWN mind.

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

May, 28 2018 at 11:47 am

Why does this a**hole have access to your money? You have only yourself to blame for that so you can't really complain. Who cares what your kids think! And who cares if they don't care about you, why should they? You let him treat you this way! Get out NOW! If you have someone who cares about you go to him! Go where the love is! Don't stay where it isn't! None of this is rocket science!

December, 16 2012 at 9:21 am

I'm not sure if i'm taking the right apporach on my marriage but I have been with my husband for 8 years married 5. for about 4 years we didn't get along then i wanted to change so i became a member of a church and changed for the best attitude wise and still changing for the better. for almost 6 years my husband has been calling me every name in the book, he also says he hates me i make him sick he wished he never married me and so on. but he does those things when he is mad but when he is not mad he is the greatest person in the world. we have 2 kids together soon 3 and we got into an argument 7 days ago and he left to his mother's and father's. on that day he called me a moron at that point i had it i told him to get out. packed some of his things and brought them to his parents. but all his stuff his here/home clothes tvs electronics. i mean everything. i think he called once but i missed the call he hasn't called me yet to check on the kids or to talk he hasn't been home. i feel like at this point i need to stand my ground and when he calls he calls if he doesn't then i guess i know what i need to do financially because he supports the family. i need some advice on what i need to do or if this is right what choice i made to make a stand for myself.

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

May, 28 2018 at 11:53 am

Stand your ground! Tell this moron that if he doesn't go with you to therapy then you are leaving! Bottom line no excuses! Apparently you can get along enough for a 3rd kid? Stop getting in deeper. Accept that you are screwed and let go of the material stuff! Are you going to ruin your life over a TV? Come on you know he's a asshole even though he's "Great" when he's not a asshole? Really?

January, 20 2013 at 5:06 pm

I just wanted to let you know you were right to take a
stand. Yay you and you are brave & know you didn't
deserve to be mocked and trampled with words.
Sometimes taking a stand can cause more damage
you believe , yet you know the REAL story and justice
for yourself & kids is the right thing. He said these
things because he wants a break & wants you give him
reason to leave you , to walk out or tell him yes, the mere
reason he ignored also . He may want a forever break
& you did all the right things but he hes deep down
self centered & tired if you yes & ready for new .
I was widowed & remarried & lll never understand
the stubborn ways he treats me & ill testify
if i didnt keep pushing to have mended us back
together after he left , he would have never came back.
But the abusive words you wrote I did & still
experience . Just somebody with money &looks
he'd ready to escape the cares of life as
he's always done . A set guarantee to be financially
good & new start on life, this would be final & fine w/ him.
Some are just not cut out for death do you part no matter
how we wish it .

mechelle kinder
March, 8 2013 at 9:01 am

I've been verbally and emotionally abused and and I took my kids and left we were never married I need to kno what to do so he can't take them when he comes out to visit

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Kellie Holly
March, 14 2013 at 12:16 am

Mechelle, you need to speak to law enforcement or an attorney.

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

May, 28 2018 at 11:58 am

Go to court! Get a restraining order and have him served! We aren't talking rocket science here. Leave how to protect yourself and your kids. Don't you have any friends or relatives? Or have they all been through his and don't want to get involved. There are domestic abuse victims homes you can go to. JUST GET OUT!!

March, 27 2013 at 4:17 am

I don't know where to go or what to do. I have no money and little prospects of a job. My husband has been verbally and sometimes physically abusing me since we got married in 2000. He calls me every name in the book on a daily basis. He calls my (married) friends whores and demands I don't see them. Tonight I have a planned girls night for coffee and chitchat for a few hours - my husband has threatened that if I go he will move his pay out of our joint bank account and that I will be out on the street. I understand he is manipulating me, but his abuse is daily and sometimes hourly. I feel like a broken woman. I am a shell of what I used to be. He hates my family and threatens to start fights with them if we get together. This morning he said he was going to email one of single friends and tell her he wanted to F*** her. I don't even know what to think anymore I am so burnt out. I am struggling with my home business and am making little money. He calls me stupid and useless daily about this but does not want me to work away from home even though we are struggling financially. I feel as if I am in a prison...

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Kellie Holly
March, 27 2013 at 5:10 pm

Tell on him. Rat him out. Spill the beans.
Email your friend and tell her what he threatened to say.
Tell your family he threatens to start fights at family gatherings.
Then when he threatens to do something like that again, you can calmly look at your fingernails and say, "Oh, yeah - I must have forgot to tell you that I told them you threatened to do that," and then spin on your heels and walk away.
You are blessed to still have friends; you are blessed to have a family. Ask if you can stay with one of your friends/family members temporarily. Open your own bank account and transfer one of his paychecks to it, then leave. You will never be on the street - someone will take you into their home. Without his constant abuse, you will feel more energetic and get your business off the ground and/or find work until your business gets going.
You are so burnt out that you cannot see the blessings waiting for you after you take the first step away from him. I can see them...

In reply to by Anonymous (not verified)

May, 28 2018 at 12:04 pm

He knows that he's the one who is stupid and useless that's why he treats you like this. But you ARE being stupid and useless if you don't get out! Let him email your friend and say he wants to f**k her. Then she can take it to the cops and then they will visit him and then she can take out a restraining order. GET OUT. What are you waiting for, for him to kill you? These type of men are bullies and cowards. Why don't they pick on men their own size? Because they would kick his ass.

Dawn Goodman
March, 28 2013 at 4:46 pm

The verbal abusers I know are angry that the family Narcissist encouraged them to move in with her and became destitute when I could not afford to keep up two households. They should be angry with her for talking them out of the support I was providing when they lived at home instead she is their hero and I am the villain. I have been reminded of the terrible things that happened to me that they instigated. For example; I only experienced violence from the men they had contact with. They don't realize that I can see the difference. One of them says that she is a better parent than me she has a Master's degree in Nursing,and 1 child. I had a high school diploma, and three children)this is an unfair comparison. The last time I moved one of them suggested that I get rid of my furniture. She did not know that I had to get rid of some of the furniture anyway because it was damaged by dampness. During the next argument I was told that it was Karma that i did not have that much, and the other person has 4 houses. So What? The more unphased I was by the comments the more vicious the onslaught.I decided to go no contact. Telling them to Live Long and prosper. The Narcissist who is usually careful managed to fall and fracture a bone afterward.I sent a message through a third party for her to get well and I am still No Contact I suspect that she injured herself to force me to contact her.

April, 4 2013 at 1:53 am

Abuse is one of the most difficult situations to be in. I lived in a marriage with verbal and physical abuse. Out of fear I did nothing about it, till one day, He punched me in my face. When I tasted the blood in my mouth, and the fear of loosing my life, I decided that I could no longer be blinded by my love for him, and I had to get out. It was the best thing that I could of done for myself. Do not wait till your life is at risk. Get help. Don't wait till it is too late. God Bless.

April, 6 2013 at 5:41 am

Great article above, thank you! I have been married 6 1/2 yrs and have been trying to get divorced for nine months but still in process. I am truly greatful because I've gotten to the side of things where I have started to get myself back! I have always considered myself a strong and smart person, but the constant verbal/emotional abuse took its toll on me. I really felt like I lost myself along the way. I actually felt like a crazy person because when no decision you ever make is correct, you kind of just stop making them. My husband would not only not support most of my efforts, he would down right sabotage me and watch and want me to fail! This was satisfying to him because it made him feel important and like I needed him. He scowled at me, huffed at me a lot, and even chastized me for getting up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom if I had to! I walked on eggs shells constantly. I took antidepressants to cope, but I woke up one day and said NO MORE! I told myself that I wasn't going to pacify the situation anymore. I told myself it was going to SUCK, but that I had to be prepared to feel the full weight of the situation to get mad enough not to be manipulated into staying together anymore. Antidepressants were not the answer for me because even though I was depressed, I had never been depressed before and my mental state was from abuse....not depression! My husband actually filed for divorce from me twice. Through both of them he kept trying to sleep with me to void the divorce. He would be nice and arrange family outings and bring me flowers. Call it manipulation, call it him being a dumbass and realizing what he lost, who cares?!?!?!?! We reconciled the first time, but the second time I knew this was it. If I went back now it wasn't a mistake or him tricking me, if I went back now it would be my choice.
To get to where I am now, I had to get to the point where I didn't care if I was living in a cardboard box, just as long as I had my daughter and I was out of the marriage. I heard the question, WHAT'S MORE IMPORTANT, ALL THE YOU HAVE OR ALL THAT YOU ARE? When I heard this, I knew the answer. What I am is more important than what I have. That's why homes, material items, and money are good manipulation tools of emotional abusers. As soon as you make peace with the idea that you are more important than every single other material thing in the house, then you won't be able to have these things held over your head. As an example, I was told all the time that I was gonna get thrown out of the house and have to go find a place to live and that he would keep my daughter. When I finally said, FINE I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE HOUSE, TAKE IT! was when he stopped using it against me. The part where things did get muddy for me were about my daughter. He filed for custody the first time and told me he was going to say I was a drug user, cheater, workaholic, unfit mother. He actually wrote in his court statements that he was the primary caregiver of our child and that I had minimal interaction with the child since birth. *Did I mention this was going to suck?!* There were definitely moments of weakness where I asked myself if fighting over my daughter was worth having to have him constantly lying about my character and having a go at me. I always shoved those feelings to the side pretty quickly though. I would lay down my life for my child, yet I found myself questioning if the fight with my husband over custody would be worth it, and I knew that was the abuse talking...not me. For a long time, I convinced myself that I could put up with almost anything so that my daughter could have two parents with her as much as possible. I had a smart friend tell me it was about quality of time instead of quantity of time, and he was right! My 80% of time with her without feeling stressed out and anxiety ridden all the time is better than 100% of me while my husband was around. My relationship with my daughter now is WAY better and closer than it has ever been. I actually get to be myself with her, and she gets to see the real me with my undivided attention given to her. I get to focus on being a MOM and not side stepping arguments with my husband. I felt like I was a good mom before, but I know I am a better one now. Now, we get to have fun and laugh A LOT! Real laughter these days, there is a difference...I can feel it when I laugh. She turned six this week.
What has helped me...
Therapy. It took me awhile in therapy before I even had any inkling that I was being abused. So if you are here looking on this site, then you are already ahead of where I was! Some 'ah ha' moments from therapy: 1. I wondered why my husband would get so mad that I was playing soccer once a week. I have played competitive soccer since I was 10. Therapist told me it was ok to participate in normal, healthy adult activities and that I shouldn't have to feel like I can't or that I need permission. *That was crazy talk in my home.* 2. A partner is a team mate. If we were on a basketball team and I had a great player as a team mate but he NEVER passed the ball, is that someone I would really want on my team? Doesn't mean he isn't a good basketball player, he is just not someone you want to be on a team with. 3. Relationships are about 'relating'...if your partner does not acknowledge your feelings or listen to you explain how things are making you feel, then that's not ok. *Seems logical now, but groundbreaking at the time.* 4. When your partner says mean things to you, it's ok to step back in your mind and say to yourself, "No, wait a minute, I know myself and no, that's not me." Just because your partner says you ARE things does not make them true. 5. When you feel like something is wrong, it is. That's you're body/mind telling you something is wrong, and anger is an emotion that doesn't have to be cast away all the time. It's ok to recognize you are angry about things in order to begin dealing with them. If you push your anger away all the time, then most likely are not dealing with the reasons for the anger.
If you are worried about cost of therapy, don't let this detour you. Find a way to see someone (my husband quit hus job to get me off his insurance). I would imagine almost everyone in this situation would benefit from therapy. It hasn't been used against me in court, and he has gone to lengths of making stuff up, so I can tell you this hasn't come back to haunt me in anyway like I thought it could have. However, if you are on any prescriptions that can be brought up in court, but the judge seemed not to care of anything that was being prescribed.
Book. On Christi Paul's LOVE ISN'T SUPPOSED TO HURT. She went through this and basically provided an insightful account on the who, what, why of it all. Listening to this book helped me identify more situations that I hadn't even recognized as when I was throwing up and sick one day and he refused to leave work 1.5hrs early to get our daughter from day care. She has lots of unique tips on how to find the benefits of verbal abuse. Sounds weird at first but it is very healing. This book healed more of me in days than I could have done on my own in years.
Book. By Karen Casey. EACH DAY A NEW BEGINNING. Its a daily advice book for women. Originally created for recovering addicts and alcohol users, but it works for all women.
Pinterest. I have a board dedicated to QUOTES. Then I made one dedicated to DIVORCE. When I feel weak, I read my divorce board with my good quotes and it isntantly strengthens me. Lots of favorites including, "My husband and I got divorced over religious differences.... He thought he was God and I didn't!!!!!" "I didn't change, you just never knew me." "Never get jealous when you see your ex with someone else, because our parents taught us to give our used toys to the less fortunate." "On the other side of fear lies freedom." "Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low-self esteem, first make sure you are not surrounded by assholes." Obviously, they range from serious to funny. I won't put anymore so you can discover some of these gems on your own.
Search CONTROLLING BEHAVIOR. I read an article online the other day about how controlling men/women try to remove any type of outside stimuli in your life including family, friends, work, activities. They participate in constant accusations of cheating (also in Christi Paul's book). And more.
Get armed with a tape recorder. When things got really bad I would just lay there and get yelled at and messed with. I finally started recording things after he told me he would lie about me in court. I felt like I needed a way prove him wrong. The recorder on my phone records for almost an hour. You can download a call recorder app too that records all phone calls and you can delete all the ones you don't need to keep. I struck gold on several recordings but one especially where he came in after he had moved out and started an altercation. He threw something at me and hit me in the face and woke my daughter up who was in bed next to me. I asked him to leave over and over and finally said I would call the police. He told me that I had no proof of an altercation and that it was just third party heresay since I didn't have a bruise on my eye. Maybe this is where I should mention my husband is a police officer. So it was pretty daunting knowing I was going to have to face him in court. Words of caution on this: I NEVER told him about the recordings and never played them for anyone except my lawyer. You can't let the recordings ever be known or use them as leverage before court. You have to back them up to cloud storage in the event somethings happens to your phone. You have to password protect your phone unless you can move all of your recordings to internet/cloud storage. If someone calls while using the tape ecorder it stops that recording and it won't restart on its own. You have to manually restart the tape recorder app or put phone in airplane mode to avoid calls.. He didn't know about these recordings until the day of court. His lawyer still tried to accuse me of being at fault for the altercation and accused me of chasing him into the next room to continue the altercation when I was asking him to leave. *Did I mention this is going to suck?!* You should also download a screenshot app. It is helpful for many things including taking pics of my call logs when my husband accuses me of not letting him talk to our daughter to show either they did speak or he never called. I just attach the screenshot picture in an email and send to my lawyer.
You are not alone. Get your support system together. Family, friends, lawyer. Realize that judges have seen controlling behavior over and over and should be able to identify it very easily. Despite his crooked lawyer, I've gotten nearly everything I have asked for, and even if I didn't, I was prepared to live in a cardboard box as long as I had my daughter. It's not emotional to the judge. It's business. You need to start treating it that way too.
Don't give up your rights. My husband tried to have me waive my right to have trial in our county of marital residence. This means me driving to him for every court hearing. He tried to convince and badger me over and over not to have a lawyer and accused me of being an idiot for wasting my money. He tried to get me to settle for way less than what I was entitled to, and I would have agreed to some things unknowingly just to get him off my back but my lawyer wouldn't let me. You will pay $2500-$5000 for a lawyer but you need someone in your corner that knows the law and what you are entitled to. If you give up $100 a month in child support, that's $1200 a year for however many years until your kids are 18. Your lawyer can set up an income deduction order so that you are not at your spouses's whim (control) as to when you receive settlement money.
Journal. My therapist suggested writing a letter that I would never send to him of everything I wanted to say. I thought it would be silly, but is was great! And, best of all, there was no arguing back from him and I always get the last word.
Records. Keep records of nasty texts, emails, pictures that are pertinent to your case (such as the aftermath of him/her throwing things), recordings, voice mails, and even write down things said with dates, times, etc. Think of it like a piggy bank. Every time you deposit a piece of information you put a quarter into your virtual piggy bank. The bigger your bank gets the more you will be able to do with it later, and you want your virtual piggy bank bigger than your spouse's. If things go well you may not have to use any of it, but if they go sour, then you can smash that piggy bank open in an emergency. Written dates and times are helpful. Pictures are worth a thousand words. Recordings are worth 10x that.
Stay calm. Both my husband and his lawyer had the same tactic in and out of court. To make me lose it. He would try to incite me to hit him so he could claim I was the physical abuser. His lawyer was aggressive, accusatory, rude, manipulative, and a real witch. She was trying to get me incited in court to look like an idiot and provide some type of validation for the abuse on the recordings. I am not a calm type of person, but I could clearly see their tactics and made a game of being calm. It was more important to win the game with myself (I lost if I let them upset me) than it was to lose to their tactics. This is where the tape recordings help. They make you be on your best behavior too. Your spouse will still act like their own regular jackass. This is also good practice in staying calm and not cussing for court on down the road.
Disable your Facebook account. My lawyer told me not to post anything on Facebook. I thought that seemed a little over the top. However, he was virtually stalking me. I was nervous how he would react to peoples comments to regular things like pics. He also looked through my account when my daughter had our iPad. I set it to deactivate, and it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I don't even miss it. Anything you do like date, make an account for a dating website, or anything is fair game for court until the divorce is final.
Juicing! Juicing fruits and vegetables will give your body lots and lots of nutrients your body needs to cope with stress. I love juicing and have my own Breville juicer. You can also get freshly juiced veggies at Whole Foods. My husband hated me doing this too. He thought it was stupid.
Several paragraphs ago, I realized this was less of a blog post and more of a rant, but I've been through a lot, as I am sure you have been also. I had a great childhood, great parents, lots of siblings, college degree, played lots of sports, good friends, great kid, and good job. And, somehow I had arrived at a place in my life where I felt worthless. I have never dated an abusive person before, and somehow married one. I was (and still am somewhat) naive about how marriage is supposed to work. My marriage got so bad so quickly that I didn't even know what hit me! Abusive and controlling relationships can happen to any woman (or man) of any race, ethnicity, level education, level of income, where you can happen to anyone. It's not your fault it happens, but after you identify the problem it will be your choice after awhile if you let it continue. Hopefully, this may help someone. I hope it didn't offend anyone. I recognize that abusers are not only men. In my story it is my husband. Also, I'm quite sure that abuse won't just go away. So, you should work on yourself to prepare for the road ahead. A saying I repeat to myself often now is, "it takes ten times as long to put yourself back together as it does to let yourself fall apart." When I feel weak and powerless, this helps me to not give in to to the feelings of wanting to give up and just get stepped all over. Before I felt like it would take all my strength just to get through a divorce, and now I feel I have so much strength that even though my spiteful husband is as nasty as ever, I only have to reserve a small amount of strength to deal with him. A lot of the rest of my energy now goes to other things including my daughter and playing "man hamper!" Yes, it's a silly game we invented in between me typing this and playing with her today where she sits in the hamper and makes it talk like a man. Once again, confirming that my new found laughter is deeper and richer.
Be nice to yourself!

May, 8 2013 at 12:17 am

A couple days ago I was with my daughter's father,(I'll name him B for short) I told him to never come back or I would call the police. It all unraveled so fast. Our relationship was so unstable B would threaten to leave almost every day( not exaggerating). It finally got to the point where I just didn't care anymore about B. My son's father passed away( a relationship I had at 15), my son is now 15 years old. B is a bad example and this is why... I told him I do not allow smoking pot around me or my children but he refused to let me tell him what he can and can not do. I met B and thought I was in love but now I ask myself how could you love someone you did not give enough time to get to know? The more I got to know the less I liked about him. I became pregnant very soon with our daughter. During my pregnancy he would leave in the middle of the night and come home later that day. He told me that he wished he had a beautiful girlfriend like the one his nephew has. It made me feel awful. When I told him I was having contractions he yelled at me and told me I was complaining for nothing before I had the baby. I was on the phone with my mom asking for her to take me to the hospital because he would not help me get there and told me to go back to sleep. "I'm being ridiculous" then he ripped the phone out of my hand and told my mother F-U. She has never liked him since. At the hospital I am surprised the police were not called. He would yell at me in the middle of the night and taking care of a newborn after surgery and the lack of sleep is hard enough. After all of this I still stayed with him still hoping we could change together and was so happy to have a new baby. The constant unhappiness, him leaving me at odd hours in the morning, dealing with his drug problem issues with meth. The constant lies. Then fighting over giving our baby her first bath because he did not want me to show him how to do it. ( I had experience with my only son) I had extreme difficulty with sleep. I was in the hyper manic mode where I was so exhausted with the baby but my body could not reach that state where I could relax enough to go to sleep. I was hospitalized in mental health for becoming comatose after not being able to sleep for weeks. I lost my daughter who is now 1 year old. His parents are taking care of her and have been since she was a month old. I have been very depressed over this the last year. I do have her with me 2 days out of the week which I am grateful for. He is always telling me why don't I care about her like I do my son and other insulting things like I do not give a s*** about our daughter. He slapped a visitors pass he had still stuck on his shirt on her stroller after we had taken my son to the ER and he slapped it on her stroller. He told me our daughter is just a visitor in my home. This totally contradicts what he did to me in my pregnancy...telling me I was selfish if I did not get an abortion with her. The final and last cherry on top of it all came just a few days ago when he came home and called my son an f****** liar and he was going to beat his a**. I told him I NEVER want to see him again.

September, 9 2013 at 6:30 pm

This battle is not yours.Its the lords.

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May, 20 2022 at 10:55 pm

I am embarassed even to share this with you because i lnow the reality of it. He calls me horrible names in public on my doorstep. When we are together he plays on his phone always distracting his attention. cant look me in the eye or say anything nice.
Never wants to touch me. Walks out comes bk never with a sorry. never calls or siggests time alone.only complains when we are alone its all my fault. i am to blame shows his friends that he can be nice telling them about the dinners we had. To him when i feel ugly he finds that beautiful. I am a beautiful woman always took care and presented myself well now i walk around scraggy but he says that is beautiful. only happy when his with the guys and finds it a torture to be alone at home and ignores me all the time.I cant connect if itry to communicate he diverts my attention to hate contributing negative flaws unnecessary to the cause. He says he hurts me cos i need to learn. as he drives off and leaves me all alone

May, 23 2022 at 12:04 pm

Hello Sammi, I am Cheryl Wozny, current author of the Verbal Abuse in Relationships blog here at Healthy Place. Thank you for reaching out and sharing your story. It takes courage to take that step. Although you may feel embarrassed, there is no shame in finding your voice to talk about your circumstances.
I encourage you to explore some resources that can help you heal and move forward from this negative situation that you are facing. You can view many of them here:…. Know that there are people to support you and help you, no matter where you are. Be well.

January, 8 2014 at 5:29 am

I want to walk away from my abusive relationship but I cant im scare of him so much. Someone can help me or give me advice how to stop my relationship.I've been trying my own but become hard for me. I have to deal with him callin me a whore ,trash,that im worthless,he regret meeting me,that im a cheater when I really always at my house takin care our son when he always with hes friends.any advice please

April, 19 2014 at 7:30 am

Trying to just walk away from ten years with verbally abusive partner, degrades me for existing ignores that I have fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue. Yells and screams put downs daily, stupid, lazy, bad mom, dumb lazy bitch on and on and then says he loves me and we need a future plan. He has been in my ten year olds life for seven years and she sees his cruelty at me but he showers her I need the esteem to just walk.

May, 9 2014 at 4:43 am

I have finally had it! I am finally done and ready to leave my verbally abusive husband of 5 going on 6 years. He calls me any and every name he can think of...b%$&@#, hoe, dummy, stupid, he says he wishes he never married me, he talks badly about my family, on and on it goes. When I try to leave the house to get away from him he gets in my way and more than a few times he has locked me in the house, thrown my things around, broken my things, pushed me into glass twice and I still have the scars to show it. One time it even got to a point where I had to jump out the window to get away from him(thank God we lived on the 1st floor)and I got a ride to my parent's house from my friend who lived upstairs and heard the screaming. One time I called the police and left him, but like a love sick fool I listened to his sweet words and came back to him both times. You would think I learned my lesson from the first episode, but I guess I wasn't ready to believe that this man who says he wants me to be the mother of his children could really be that much of a monster. Of course things are nice and loving at first, but then things are back to the same old thing and he is again verbally abusive. After he calms down from his rants he always tries to excuse his behavior and basically blames me for the reason he blows up but tells me he loves me and needs me. Two years ago, I had a miscarriage and since then I have been having fertility problems, so I can't easily get pregnant and of course its my fault. So now when he gets in his rant he threatens that he will have kids with someone else and show them off to me. I don't know why one minute he loves me and the next he says I disgust him. My health...mental and physical is in danger at this point. I've got to get out of here!!!

June, 2 2014 at 1:30 pm

My abuser makes a game of throwing me out and taking me back.He has done this dozens of times in our seven years together. I am depressive and each time,I end up nearly hospitalized,but he acts like nothing ever happened. So one time after this over and over, i took him at his word and slept with someone once while we were apart. Now I am easy,slut,whore every day since. I can't visit mymom he says i have guys coming there to get me. He says he will neber trust me I am a liar. It was a one time thing. I don't use my car or leabe my home my mom picks me up. He uses my car daily for work and never fuels it up so i camt

June, 7 2014 at 3:09 pm

Thank you for posting this stuff.Well the last time I tried to leave I took my daughter, put down a damage deposit if$1000, then my sister talked me out of it suggesting I would not have my boys on side, that they would not visit. I gave the landlord 6 weeks notice I had changed my mind and have not heard from him since. The only good thing is he's not my landlord anymore. My son sleeps in the kitchen because he does not want to sleep in the garage room
My husband started for him, my husband us mad about this and finds every excuse in the book not to do something to help him settle into something better. He won't let me do anything permanent. I called him on it last night and he ranted at me finishing with the question" do you have Alzheimer's or something?" Today he's mad at me, as if I said the nasty words. ( men - some men (?) creep (s) )
My parents were dedicated to one another

June, 11 2014 at 3:07 pm

I have been separated for eight months now after 38 years of marriage. Its very freeing and my older sons are totally supportive of me. My husbNd has been trying for months with his other self to woo me back. I don't think I mentioned I've done this twice before. I have read every book and hundreds of articles. Gone to therapy and been told by the therapists to keep moving forward. I am intelligent, work in a job I love etch. And yet I struggle when he plays the hurt emotional card. My mind knows he's verbally abused me and emotionally. I need help to get over this hurdle. Any suggestions would be so appreciated.
Thank you for the postings they are very helpful.

July, 9 2014 at 10:19 pm

Hi.I'm eighteen years old and I have been dealing with verbal abuse for seven years. My grandmother and her oldest daughter is always saying that I will never make it to the military,or that I need to get a job with my lazy ass,or you are not going to make it in the real world,or you not going to make it to college&you not ready for college.They also try to compare there life to mine.This is what the oldest daughter said:I had a car when I was sixteen.I don't have my drivers license because they are not trying to help me,if money was involved they will be your best friend.I'm going to my aunties house because she is in the army reserves. she is going to help me with my ASVAB and my CNA certification.without her I will be in the same situation.:(

September, 6 2014 at 3:29 pm

My husband just told me I make him sick , I've cried all night I love him, my son heard us crying b3gged us to stop . I'm tired of feeling like a dog and not loved , he is always on phone texting someone never talking to me or our sin, he never plays with our son. What should I do?

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Kellie Jo Holly
September, 7 2014 at 1:09 pm

Continue educating yourself about abuse and begin talking to domestic violence hotline workers and local programs that can help you with group therapies and support. The title of this blog is Walk Away From Verbal Abuse. Walking away may be exactly what you decide to do in the future. It's what I wish I had done when my children were small.

September, 8 2014 at 7:23 am

Kellie I read an article of your months ago that helped me take my first steps, the first steps to become a longer a victim. I have been in a physically and verbally abusive marriage for 10 years. I finally had the courage to back my life, my children's lives. It wasn't easy, 30 days into it I still have bad days but I know my worst days alone will never be as bad as the pain, loneliness, self-doubt, anger and regret I lived with for so many years. I feel like I have come out of a fog.

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Kellie Jo Holly
September, 15 2014 at 3:31 pm

I am so happy for you! Remember to set and keep boundaries, keep notes about his strange or bothersome behaviors, and pay special attention to your personal safety. When we leave or become survivors instead of victims, the abuse increases because of the changes we make in ourselves.
Congratulations, take care of you, and enjoy the life of freedom!

January, 18 2015 at 3:07 am

I used to be an independent, happy, outgoing person. But now I feel like I lost myself. My husband has used many many derogatory words to me for 4 years since we started living together on our own. Stupid, weak, lazy are the "regulars". Mostly he gets mad because I have been taking care of our children and have not been bringing in money. I have been working on getting back to my profession but it hasn't been easy (I am an immigrant). At the beginning, I would fight back and talk back to him. But realizing that I can never win, I started to just keep quiet hoping that if I don't talk back, he would not go on longer. For the years that I did not work to take care of my little girl (I have 2 other kids), he would talk down to me saying things like, how can you not find a job?, it's because you are not strong enough/ too weak/ too dependent/ stupid etc... I didn't fight back anymore, took his words like truth, feeling like it really was my fault and that I really was too weak or stupid. Later last year, I do not know how it happened, I came upon a realization that I do not need to take this. Now I want out, but I do not know how especially with my children. Although I have the means, I do not know if it's legal. This page is very empowering and I was crying the whole time I was reading it. I am feeling that the fear that he has instilled in me is slowly melting away and in time, I will be able to just get up and walk away.

January, 19 2015 at 8:14 am

I've been dealing with my verbally abusive boyfriend for almost a year. About 2 months into us dating we were out together and he asked me a question and I jokingly replied and he immediately called me a bitch, and told me to get up and that we were leaving and he was taking me home. I told him I wasn't going anywhere with him and that I would take a cab home. He started making a scene so I left with him and because he also had forgot something at my house. So as we walked down the street he was in front of me calling me every name in the book, a loser, a bitch a piece of shit. I did not say a word. I got in the truck and didn't say a word all the way home. We did not speak for a couple of week and then when we did he managed to turn it on me. He has also gotten right in my face on a couple of occasion in public and screamed at me. Every month he fights with me about my pas, calls me names, antagonizes me etc. to the point where we have these huge blowouts and don't speak for days, sometimes a week. Most of the time I go to him. Yesterday he called me the C word because I told him to get off me because he was sitting on me and tickling me and I've had some back problems for a few days and didn't want him to tweak something. He then told me he called me that because I have PMS which I do not. He makes excuses every time. I always go back because when it's good, it's good. He's really sweet and nice. I am at my end today. I didn't do anything to him to have him call me a C yesterday which he called me several times and then I just left. I went to get my stuff this morning that I needed and he told me he didn't care and that he called me that because I was acting like one because I have pms. He again called me the c word again. I physically attacked him after he told me he called me that because I had pms. I have tried and tried and believed him over and over and I am so frustrated. I need to stay away from him but once a week or so goes by I start missing the good him and it's a cycle all over again. I don't want to be treated like this by the person who says he loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me. It's devastating every time it happens.

March, 3 2015 at 10:56 am

ive been married for 2 years now and I came into the marriage with a daughter who considers my husband as daddy and he sits there and calls me a cunt right in front of her and I told him that I hate that name because when I was raped by my mothers boyfriend that's what he called me and I told my husband that and he still calls me it. I just don't know what to do anymore im so sick of him treating me like this and doing it infront of my daughter its horrible someone please help I don't what to do anymore

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Kellie Jo Holly
March, 7 2015 at 8:18 am

Your daughter is two. She can learn all about a better daddy in the future after you leave this one. Don't stay for her. You have to get the hell out of there for you.
Do you want him to call your daughter a cunt? To sit her on his knee and systematically destroy HER dreams? Right now he's using her to destroy you, but it is only a matter of time before your daughter is his target too.
Call a hotline and find resources in your area that can help you leave.

s rodriguez
April, 2 2015 at 11:43 am

Sometimes I think I am the only person in America with such a monster for a husband, but reading this blog makes me realize there are a lot of other women in my shoes. After 29 years of taking this maniac's verbal beatdowns on a regular basis, I have finally starting facing exactly what it is. He is not my husband, he is my assailant. His confrontations are attacks. I have not been merely degraded and diminished, I have been assaulted. This man killed the marriage and taught me to hate. I never knew hate in my entire life. Even throughout most of this marriage, I didn't hate him. But that changed 2 years ago when he decided I no longer existed, and he would only speak to me when he was in the mood for another beatdown. At the beginning of this alienation, I was in shock. I went through all the stages of grief, one by one. In the end was acceptance. I accepted the marriage was dead. And now, instead of always giving him the benefit of the doubt and forgiving his attacks, I have developed a hatred for him - it's the same intensity of hatred I now realize he always had for me. I now realize this marriage was a fraud from day 1. But I stay in it because I know if I leave, he will retaliate in the most vicious way he can think of. My life would probably end. So I stay, and I pray that I will outlive him and I will be able to shout out "free at last, free at last, thank God Almighty, I'm free at last!"

just woke up
July, 4 2015 at 1:55 pm

i have just woke up these past few days and realised I am at the hands of a verbal abuser. While reading posts here I can equal all of them. I'm at my total wits end and cannot take this anxiety any longer I am still trying to get my head around the fact that I am not to blame but how do I get myself well again! How can I be the strong person I once was?? I really need some help!

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Kellie Jo Holly
July, 7 2015 at 10:29 am

First, welcome to awareness <3 It feels great to finally know what is happening in your relationship. But then, suddenly there are all the questions. Take a deep breath. You are going to be okay.
Keep educating yourself about domestic violence and abuse. You will come to understand a lot more than you do already.
You can get yourself well again the same way any other person overcomes anxiety and depression. So try some of the suggestions you find online. Living with your abuser as you deal with all of this will make healing tougher. Every day, the abuse pulls you down, so it's hard to get ahead of it. Do good things for you anyway.
Make an appointment with your doctor to check for depression/anxiety.
Start putting a support system in place (call a hotline and reach out for help from local support groups and services, tell your family and friends the truth). And remember, don't trust "his" friends and be cautious about his family - even the best in-laws tend to stick with their blood in cases like this.
Those two things will put you on the right path. Remember to just breathe and let things soak in.

July, 10 2015 at 3:49 am

I just realized that my husband may be verbally abusive. I don't know why I never realized it before. It is so hard for me to accept because I love him so much and i feel like our relationship is good 75% of the time. But then he gets moody and takes it out on me and sometimes our kids. Sometimes it is jusy by treating me like I'm stupid, or actually calling me stupid and telling me it is my fault that he acts this way. The worst part is when he ignores me. I try to reach out to him and tell him how I feel but he will shut me down. After a few days he will just act like nothing happened, and sometimes apologize. I feel like I am overreacting because I know I am not perfect and I get stressed and make mistakes, but I know I deserve to be treated with respect. I always stick up for myself and tell him to stop. I remove myself from the situation, i tell him it is not okay. But after a day or two i feel better and I forgive him. He is an amazing person in so many ways. Recently he agreed to get marriage counseling. Is it possible for us to work things out of he is willing to work on it or is my marriage a lost cause. I love him and don't want to leave him but I dont want to go on feeling all alone whenever something goes wrong! PLEASE HELP i really need advice!

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Kellie Jo Holly
July, 10 2015 at 6:12 am

No one can see the future, so I don't know if marriage counseling will help in your case. If you go to marriage counseling, let the therapist know right away that you're there because of the verbal and emotional abuse. Don't let your husband hijack the session with a symptom of the problem. For example, during a first visit for marriage counseling, my ex complained about the cats. Really? We were there because he abused me. But I didn't speak up until the next session.
However, IMO, you need individual counseling too. You need someone who can help you keep your head clear, and a therapist you see by yourself is YOUR advocate. Someone who can help you pay attention to what he does instead of what he says.
I do not recommend seeing the same counselor for both individual and marital counseling. I've heard too many people complain that what was talked about in their individual counseling session came out in the marital counseling.
If your husband backs out of counseling, that is a sure sign you should go anyway.

July, 14 2015 at 6:53 pm

I did not know my husband very well before we got married. There were prophecies that I was to marry this evangelist. A week after we were married, I realized he was a black out alcoholic. I refused to live with him while he was actively drinking. He stopped drinking about 18 months ago. At first i thought the outbursts were from untreated alcoholism, but I now realize he displays premeditated abusive behavior. I have several chronic painful diseases that can leave me immobile. It is then he chooses to rage and verbally batter for hours. If I put earbuds on he will get right in my face and yell louder and starts throwing things. He knows if he tries this on the phone i will hang up or if I am well enough I will leave. I am not easily able to move out, I am trying to build up my business, so financially I can qualify for my own apartment and divorce him. The nature of my illness, fibromyalgia, interstitial cystitis, chronic fatigue, etc, does not allow me to pursue fulltime employment. We are moving to a less expensive, smaller town where I plan to attend an active church about a mile away for support. I feel somewhat stupid to get myself involved in another abusive relationship. I was involved in one before, had several years of counseling and ended that relationship. I now recognize the signs, I deserve to be treated with respect and am working on an exit plan.
I need ideas of how to detach from him when I have acute flareups. I can only think of trying to not let him know I am acute, but sometimes I am doubled over in pain or have muscle cramps so bad, I can't walk. I do not engage, I do not explain. Trying to switch the channel, or using the broken record technique are ineffective. It is important that I detach as early as possible, as after about an hour of his crazy making, blaming and accusations my PTSD from my earlier relationship gets activated and I start to shake uncontrollably. Any ideas? Thank you

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Kellie Jo Holly
July, 27 2015 at 8:53 am

As part of your safety plan, you could ask a friend to let you come over when needed. Try to get over there at the first signs of a flare-up. If you can't get there on your own, have a code phrase that you can say into the phone quickly. Something like, "It's that time."
Detaching when he's in your face is almost impossible. Getting the heck away from him physically is easier than getting away mentally. It sounds like you're at the point where you need to go.

September, 28 2015 at 5:18 am

He controls everything. Everything! I cannot walk away during his attacks. I will be punished if I so much as look away (apparently I'm always rolling my eyes at him in ) or sigh (very disrespectful). My attitude must be very pleasing and agreeable. I cannot disagree or I will get up to 6 hours of abusive dissertations that I must listen to.
He is a true narcissist and he frightens me. I walk on eggshells every day.
I work 10-12 hours then come home to him and work at home until sometimes 1-2:30am.
He knows I'm exhausted yet purposely uses sleep deprivation as one of his tools with a smile on his face.
He used to fight MMA and was at one point a body builder and his size and strength are way beyond 95% of other men. As you can imaging he's extremely intimidating.
He used to beat me on the back side regularly with a belt until I'd lose my bladder screaming in pain. He slaps my face and or grabs my throat.
He has lately decreased the physical corrections and has increased his verbal abuse and now threatens violence if I anger him.
I have never known hate until I met him. I never knew regret until I met him.
I am done beyond done. I am planning my escape and will have to put up with him for a while longer. Nothing can change my mind now. I must trust in the journey.

September, 29 2015 at 5:07 pm

Wow! So many brave amazing women out there!
I'm glad to say I'm one of them. I left. I walked away. From everything and everyone else pretty much. Moved out of state. I had a new four bedroom house with all new everything. All the clothes and shoes I ever wanted. But I was living a nightmare and didn't know it. Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night and realized that you were having a nightmare about something and you didn't know right away if it's real or not? That's what leaving this situation feels like.
Oh but wait you say to yourself -this isn't the right time! I need to wait for (enter multiple excuses here). And yes using your kids as a reason is STILL an excuse I'm sorry. I know because I did it!!! And don't even think about the money excuse. I have enough to get by on and trust me it's all you're going to need. Peace is priceless! And healing feels good. But believe me on this: You absolutely can NOT heal UNTIL you leave.
Listen to yourself. That voice in your head. Don't listen to your friends and family that tell you what a great guy he is. What the H#$/ do they know? Nothing! And don't you know it :). Ask for help? Sure. Take cash or checks and only listen to people who have been where you are. Been through what you're going through. Yes it's hard. But if I can do it SO CAN YOU. Yes you can. Stop thinking about him and what he is doing /not doing. What do you want? Are you afraid to be alone? Don't be. There are so many good shows on now (lol ) You will heal and then you'll be you again. If you are afraid buy a gun and a dog. The dog will be your new best friend and will listen to you. A gun just helps me sleep better at night. Follow the laws of your state please. I have no intention of ever using a weapon but if I have to I will. Not that he has a clue where I am. He's remarried with a new baby and I don't even care!!! I never thought I would feel like this. They have a way of hooking you and keeping you all tangled up in the net.
So yes! Walk away sugar! Just don't let him in on it. It's your secret. Study and learn how to leave the right way. Read these blogs and others. And if you're living in a nightmare you can wake up and know that you are safe. Every. Single. Day.
Things don't matter. People matter. You matter.
Set a date and stick to it and make a promise to yourself and your kids, pets, anyone who cares about you that you are never going back. Because he will never ever ever change. As in never ever-no chance -nope not in this lifetime. He will only lie to you and you'll lose faith in yourself.
Be brave. Be strong. And you'll be free.
He's broken. You can't fix him. No one can. Of course if it's a girl you're thinking about leaving -sorry -no fixing her either. This is your life! Yours! Do what you need to do for you! Best of luck! :))
Now go write down your plan to leave.
Because it's the right thing to do.
And you know it or you wouldn't be here reading this.
I'm ok! And you will be too.
Yes you will.

October, 26 2015 at 5:04 pm

I have been in my relationship for 5 years. I have a child from a previous relationship and a child with current boyfriend. We dated long distance for a year then I moved 3 hours away from my home to be with him.
As soon as I moved in with him, his true colors came out. He would tell me i live like a pig if o didn't keep the house to his standards. He would often drive to our home town without me just to get away from me. At this time I didn't know anyone in my new community. All my friends and family werw back home.
Now, 5 years later, I tells me I'm a bitch almost every week. Selfish bitch is his favorite line to use. It only occurs when I disagree witg him. He blames me for every thing. Tells me I need to work harder and to stop asking him to help me. ( I work 40 plus hours a week a still have 2 kids to care for).
My biggest issue is that I have very few friends
here. He reminds me of that often. Tells me i
have mental problems and if I ever plan on leaving him, he will take our child from me.
Says he has the resources to prove to a Judge that I am abusive and mentally unstable. He
has drained my soul. He has started to criticize the way we have sex. He says that HE should be all I need to climax. I shouldn't have to help myself. All of my brain tells me child custody is just a threat, but it still scares me enough to stay. I wish daily that he would die.
He make 3 times the amount of money I make. He tells me if I leave him, ill regret it. Tells me I can move back in with "mommy and daddy" (that's how he likes to put it). I never have money left over at the end of the month. He makes me split the bills right down the middle. Tonight he informed me that he is going to lease a vehicle so he can get better gas mileage to work AND keep his current truck. I told him I didn't think it was fair for him to have an extra couple of hundred a month and for me to not even have enough to by pants for work. That was a mistake. SELFISH BITCH! Always thinking about myself. "If you want more, you need to work harder, stop asking me to buy shit for you. You don't deserve shit"
How do I get out? I have 8 dollars in my account and can't save anything because it all goes to bills.

November, 2 2015 at 5:32 pm

I'm in a horrible verbal abusive relationship. I know I need to get out because I am an amazing person. I have no vehicle, no job, no friends or relatives that I can go to. I am trapped!!! I hate it and I want out!!!

November, 22 2015 at 6:44 pm

How do you leave an abusive relationship?
You walk out the door.
Having a safety plan is smart if you have time to gather important papers, photos, medications. Leave when he is not home. I left one day and left everything I own. I changed my phone number that night. Blocked him and all his family and our former mutual friends on FB. I told trusted family & friends to not respond if he contacted them.
I was verbally, emotionally and physically abused by him. He followed ALL patterns Kellie talks about here. There was the tension phase (my heart would race) I walked on eggshells to 'avoid causing him' to rage/blowup/yell. I know now that I had absolutely no control over his actions. I did not cause him to do anything although he had me believing I did.
Tension phase was followed by the actual abuse, blowup, verbal or physical. From standing directly over me yelling with his hand an inch away from my face, to the time he threw me on the floor and choked me. He got to the phone first after hearing me say something about calling the police and I was arrested. He used that over my head in multiple ways to keep control. It also kept me afraid to ever involve law enforcement again. He had a rug burn from tackling me, my state must arrest one party on a DV call and he had the visible injury. A rug burn. I'm an older woman and have never been assaulted--ever. He was unable emotionally to talk about our relationship like a mature adult. He'd say, "Oh stop your psychobabble". He'd make up things I supposedly said in my sleep and punish me for weeks saying it was an ex's name. He was insanely jealous & in rages call me a whore and say I sold myself. He used my family as a weapon, telling me he was threatened by them. What he was threatened by was my attention and natural love for my family, he was outright jealous of my son and our relationship. He worked very hard to tear it down.
Then the Honeymoon stage where he'd rarely attempt a feeble apology. He never apologized for assaulting me, it was my fault, I had made him angry, I had purposely done whatever it was to set him off. His honeymoon stages became fewer & weaker, the time in between that stage and the cycle back to the Tension phase was shorter each
Time. Pretty soon it was all tension. My heart used to race and my head was cloudy. I doubted myself.
One day after a blowup so loud in our quiet neighborhood, I knew that was it. I was recovering from surgery and physically was unable
To leave when I wanted to. I'd been ignoring my gut; my women's intuition. It was screaming!! I educated myself on abuse. I read Kellies site and saw myself. I knew my gut was right.
I called the National Domestic Violence Hotline and that gave me the power I needed to leave. You can call them as much as you want and they listen, no judgement. He had recently bought a gun without consulting me under the guise of protecting his home and his belongings from my own son. When the hotline heard hed physically abused me along with verbal/emotional Abuse and had brought a gun into the home, they suggested highly that I leave.
I woke up one day and knew this is the day. I was terrified he'd come home while I was putting a few clothes into my car. The night before he'd almost lost it because he spilled a bag of chips. His face was so red I thought he and his veins were going to explode. At that point I sat back and amidst the palpitations I Marveled inside at what a sick person he truly was.
I'd left probably 6 times in our 2 1/2 years together. I have severe spinal issues and it was very hard to sleep on friends/families couches. I always got tired and missed my own home, my own bed. Why did I always have to leave? I had to because I was keeping myself safe even without knowing it at the time--I couldn't stay in that environment being screamed at, accused of things I didn't do, told to Get Out Get Out. If I stayed he'd follow me around the house yelling, then he would withdraw affection not talking to me for days at a time. He'd post passive aggressive things on FB. "Did you ever mistake a life lesson for a soulmate?" Was one of them.
The day I drove away I thought I was going to pass out. I went to a trusted friends house. I was emotionally exhausted. Living under a constant state of adrenaline, ready to fight or take flight is exhausting. The next day-- after changing my number, my address and got a PO box, I filed a restraining order. I continued to call the hotline who connected me with shelters. Most were full but God told me I have a place for you. And did He ever. I've been surrounded by the strongest, most supportive women (and a few select men) who truly understand. This is not a step back, it's been a step towards a new life--and a life without him. I'm getting healthy. I can think clearly again, make good solid life decisions and trust myself again.
It's never too late to change your life. There are organizations that want to help. I encourage you call the national hotline and start there.
Leaving is scary. It's striking out away from everything familiar. My abuser had me believing I couldn't make it without him even though he was a tightwad. He'd buy food that I was expected to cook but use that in a way that he'd twist my thinking I wouldn't eat without him.
I've had 2 major surgeries in 7 months, one of them cancer surgery and treatment. I was worn down and needed help. Whenever I was down, he'd abuse me verbally/emotionally. To the outside he'd look like the savior. But they don't know what is saved for the times we'd be alone. He did like to make sure neighbors heard his tirades, part of the humiliation he loved to dole out to me.
I'm FREE!! I'm OUT!! I'm calm, confident and self-assured. I trust myself again. I love myself. Therapy is part of the shelter support system and I'd recommend that to all abuse survivors. I have PTSD from his abuse. A door slam shakes me up. But it's not him slamming it so I'm okay.
Thank you Kellie for allowing open communication about this hard subject!! It means the world to me to read your words and know that--IT WASNT MY FAULT!!!!!

December, 30 2015 at 2:53 pm

Hello. Christine I am in the same situation as you. I don't know what to do. I am from other country and I don't have money for buy my tickets. I am trying to get a job and see if I can go home. First he doesn't want I work now the he is having economic troubles he wants I get a Job I am looking but so far nothing yet. Now he call me useless all the time :(

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