Trying is detaching.
Trying my best, is detaching.
My best is detaching.
I'm at my best when I'm detached.
Section I. The Addictive
Pull
"What?"
"Detach?"
"From what?"
(I'm not sure what it is I'm
trying to detach from)
Answer: The "Pull" of
being used as an object of addiction or using other people as objects of
addiction.
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Foreword
I am an addict. I have also been
trained to be an object of addiction. Today as I write this guide I choose not
to be an object of an addiction.
When an addict feels bad inside
they are compelled to do something to alter those feelings. Their concern is to
control the feelings they are having by using something outside of themselves
to feel better. In this way they become dependent on whatever it is that they
are using.
Consider some booze and it's
relationship to the addict. The addict uses the booze to feel better and the
booze has no complaints. The well being of the booze is of no concern to the
addict nor does he or she have compassion for the booze . The addict has no
need to control the booze since it is nothing but an inanimate object. The
addict need not talk to the booze nor ask the booze if it minds being used. The
booze has no personal identity or face, it's just booze. It has no feelings nor
does it fight to prevent itself from being used. From the booze's standpoint, a
lack of intimacy with the addict exists. That is to say that the addict need
not share anything about himself or herself with the booze. The addict and the
booze need not share anything together except the addict's need to consume
(use) the booze.
The booze's role in this
relationship is to be inactive . The addict's expectations for the booze are as
follows:
- To be compliant
- To do nothing to frustrate the
addict
As long as the booze is easy to
use the addict is happy.
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